my mom has cancer

my mom has cancer

hey guys so this isn’t going to be your typical cookie go crazy on Minecraft video it’s going to be a little different and I just want to spend some time to talk with you guys and give you an update with everything going on so yeah in January I posted a drama life video which I dreamt of doing by the way ever since I was 12 so I’m very happy I got to make my childhood dream come true so uh thank you but I revealed my name how I was growing up my struggles and just my life story um but throughout the video I mentioned my messy relationship with my mom growing up and how I hit rock bottom but you guys can watch that video after this for that full story uh but uh anyways at the end of the video it seemed like everything was going great in my life until the story took a turn and I revealed that my mom was diagnosed with cancer a lot of you have been asking for an update uh been asking how she’s doing how our family is holding up and I’ve read all of your comments and messages so I just want to First say thank you all so much I just got a text I’m sorry um yeah thank you my mom thanks you as well the support is so overwhelming and you guys are pretty awesome but uh yeah let me start from the beginning I guess so this all started back in 2023 August when my mom went in for an annual checkup with our family doctor and she did like a routine blood test or whatever everything seemed fine but about 1 week later she got a call back to book another appointment with our doctor and that is kind of bad news you know it just kind of means something bad was found if you’re called back to the the doctors so obviously she was nervous but um yeah my doctor told her that the blood test revealed tumor markers in her blood and it linked to possible thyroid cancer so that was a big shock it still wasn’t 100% confirmed yet and a whole butt ton of tests were required after discovering these markers and yeah it was it was a big shock to her and at this point I honestly did not even know that she had cancer she didn’t tell me for months and I thought everything was fine uh for context I don’t live with my parents anymore I moved out when I was 22 and my mom barely knows how to text let alone use her phone um she’s learning very fast but yeah this is off topic but one time she texted me asking how to spell my name my own mother who named me asked me this question but yeah the point is she didn’t tell me but it’s funny cuz we’re Chinese and we practically make the damn phones and we still don’t know how to use them so yeah she never called me texted me or even wanted to tell me about the cancer up until de number so this was after about 4 months of waiting for more blood tests and ultrasound to look at the limp to look at the lump growing in her neck and a biopsy which is basically poking a fat needle in her neck to take a sample of her thyroid to test if it is cancerous um yeah a lot of information which then confirmed that it is in fact cancer so that was terrible news and if you didn’t know that thyroid is like a ball sack shaped looking thing in your neck that produces hormones and stuff which is kind of a scary place to get cancer in in your neck but doctors always say that it’s the best place to get cancer so more on that later but anyways on the 19th of December is when I got the text from my mom saying that our doctor said she had cancer um when I got this text my heart dropped to the floor and I immediately called her I I was so shocked um when she picked up she was sitting at the dinner table and she looked pretty sad which instantly made me tear up we talked for about 40 minutes and after the call ended I just sat there on my chair just crying and I was so shocked I I didn’t really know what to do um I was overthinking I didn’t know if I should just drive home and spend some time with my mom it was already kind of late so I I just sat there thinking and researching and just going on WebMD searching about cancer and just went down a terrible rabbit hole but yeah one minute everything was okay with my family nobody was sick and the next minute I was hit with a train I I remember it was 8:00 p.m. basically right before Christmas and I was taking a break from filming my videos so I was like playing a game called the finals with a few friends on Discord and I told them that I had to leave for a quick call and I came back over an hour later with my mind just in like in shambles um they wondered where I was but I was just kind of struggling it off and I continued gaming with them to take my mind off of it because I I was going crazy I remember I couldn’t even talk to my friends or even focus on the game I I was just so shocked I I didn’t even yeah I find it pretty crazy that the doctors has found cancer markers in my mom’s blood in August and it took 4 months to book all the appointments to even confirm that it was cancer from August all the way till December that’s free healthcare for you in Canada long long wait lists but at least it’s free I guess but that isn’t even the start of it cuz it gets even longer anyways the next morning my mom still came in clutch as a mom and brought over some food to my house even without me asking for it a day after the news about the cancer she’s the best hardest working mom ever but uh we talked about more and we watched a few videos for just more information about thyroid cancer um anyways Christmas was a few days away so I was very glad that I planned a big Christmas dinner with my entire family and our family friends that my parents don’t get to see very often anymore I was hosting it at my house so I thought it was great for my mom to just hang out with everyone and be with family so um it was pretty good timing I guess she even bought me a new necklace for Christmas to wear which was so kind of her anyways in January we booked flight to China for a month to go traveling and to visit our family again but we were worried that the news would get in the way and we’d have to cancel the entire trip but our family doctor told us that thyroid cancer is one of the best cancers that you can get which is a very weird sense to say but I keep hearing doctors say that thy cancer is a very slow growing and non-aggressive cancer so we shouldn’t worry too much and we should definitely still go on the trip and just enjoy so we did we went to China and we had a pretty great time together as a family it was really nice to spend and an entire month with my parents because after moving out I don’t really see them too often anymore I only see them once a week every Sunday for dinner so it was pretty awesome spending time with my parents and it was awesome seeing my entire family in China again um we also spent Chinese New Year in China it felt like a war zone with all the fireworks but yeah it was a pretty solid trip but my favorite mom moment of the trip was when we took some chair list over for these giant mountains and my mom was so scared that she covered her eyes with her face mask for like 15 minutes it it was pretty funny she is so scared of heights this is my first time my mom is riding a a ski lift we’re literally so high up in the world right now and look what she’s doing she got the mask over her face yeah always been up my like no energy the m over your your eyes oh that’s much better not there yet no we’re we’re pretty close to the ground not too bad feel like I’m going skiing hi hello look we’re not even that high off the ground so secure did you even see anything out the mask no oh this is the scary part we’re going over the Ravine if you fall we fall fall in wood and it’ll hurt I don’t think it’ll even save us if we oh my God don’t don’t open your eyes oh my God that be yes the big oh my God that’s high anyways we got back in the middle of February from our trip and in March my mom told me that she was getting leg pain so she skipped work by the way she never ever skips work she’s Chinese work is in her blood um and she also said that her neck was swollen and her back was hurting so I was pretty worried for her um it took all the way until April 2nd to get a CT scan of her head and neck keep in mind this is already 8 months after we found the cancer markers which is crazy Canadian Healthcare but I’m very glad that I got to be there with my mom through all of these tests and appointments um At first she thought I wouldn’t be able to make any of these appointments because of how busy I am with work and YouTube but I learned my lesson years ago when my grandma my mom’s mom got put in the hospital and I didn’t realize how serious it was so I prioritized work until it was basically too late and I never got to hang out with her again and uh she passed it still pisses me off to think that I chose to work at a minimum wage job inside of a Furniture Warehouse rather than to visit my grandma before she passed to be fair though no one really told me how serious it was until it was too late but yeah definitely one of my regrets um my grandma was 92 so after that moment moment I realized that no matter how much work or stress or things I need to get done I told myself that I’ll always make time for the important things no matter what so yeah maybe that’s a good lesson for some of you Maybe not maybe you already know this but anyways after the CT scan my mom kept getting random headaches and pain in her eye and she kept saying that she wasn’t able to open them and everything was just scaring us so we booked another appointment with our family doctor to just simply ask more questions about her cancer our family doctor said he doesn’t know for sure if the cancer has spread yet he doesn’t know what stage it’s at but all we know was that out of the four thyroid cancers that you can get we got the pillar type which is said to be the most common and most treatable one so that was good news but everything that we wanted to know we’d have to wait to talk to the head and next specialist doctor once the CT scan results come so that was pretty frustrating that we just didn’t have the information we wanted and we’re kind of just sitting ducks but anyways after the appointment my mom took another blood test because she needs to take one every month now and just 4 days after the blood test we got a random call that another urgent doctor’s appointment was booked and we thought this would be the worst news ever we were pretty scared leading up to this second appointment thinking something terrible was found but it was just a false booking with the system God that scared us but yeah our family doctor said once we meet with the specialist in late April he’ll go through the results and the process of booking surgery and all of that stuff so fast forward to April 22nd we meet with a head and neck specialist doctor and he was was very kind and very good-looking um but he repeated again that out of all the cancers that you can get thyroid is one of the most treatable ones which is nice to hear um I’m not sure if it’s just to make us feel better but it works so thank you for that but with the CT scan results he mentioned that there were two things that they found one of the things was that they found a little growth inside of the left lymph node they don’t know if it’s cancer or not so we have to book another ultrasound biopsy so basically poke a needle into it and see this basically means that the cancer might have spread and if the cancer spreads into the lymph node it can basically spread throughout the entire body so that’s kind of scary it was a little weird though cuz he said there was a growth in the lymph Noe that is not the closest one to the neck which is odd because the cancer wouldn’t have spread to that lymph node first it usually spreads to the closer one which is very confusing and very weird so it could totally be nothing but yeah it was just something they found and something they want to test the second thing they found which is a bit more scary is that from the CT Scan they found something on my mom’s vertebrae a bone in her spine the doctor reiterated that it was highly highly highly highly unlikely for cancer to spread into her spine yes he said highly five times but he said we should definitely check to see what it is he said it could be a million different things that isn’t related to cancer but yeah that was pretty scary he said he wants to get surgery done before the end of June ideally the end of May but uh yeah yeah it’s already the end of May after giving us that news he shoved a giant camera in my mom’s mouth to see if there was any paralysis in her vocal cord and if there was paralysis that means the cancer has invaded the nerves in her neck and her vocal cord but it looked fine which is good so yeah we thought we’d be booking surgery and getting a step closer to having it all done and in the past but like I said they found even more things that are just worrying and yeah we had to book even more appointments and delay surgery even more it took a few weeks but last Sunday we finally got the MRI scan and yesterday we did the biopsy to poke a needle inside of her lymph note to see if it was cancer I was watching the doctor Hammer a needle in my mom’s neck yesterday it was a weird sight um but now we’re just waiting on results and hoping to book with the specialist again soon and pray that the cancer hasn’t spread to any of the lymph nodes or to her vertebrae cuz if it spread then we got a way bigger problem on her hands so I’m praying that it hasn’t spread and it’s just random random things that were found that way we can just have surgery to remove the entire thyroid gland and then hopefully my mom would be cancer- free so that is that is what we’re hoping for but yeah this entire process this entire story took us 10 months from last August all the way till now and we’re still on the hunt to figure out what is going on which is kind of crazy I’ve asked my mom over and over again if she wanted private surgery in the US or something we are fortunate enough and so grateful that we have the funds now to have that as an option thanks to you guys and you guys watching my videos but I don’t know she just kind of doesn’t want to go through the hassle of going to the states when all of this could have been done within a month but uh yeah my mom does have a history of neck cancer her father passed away way before I was born from some neck thing so our doctor said there is a possibility that my brother and I might develop cancer when we’re older so we should get checked up pretty often but honestly I think I’m happier knowing that I’ll get it now rather than a shock in the future so I can just mentally prepare myself anyways yeah that is the entire timeline and update of my mom’s cancer I am worried sick honestly it seems like my brother and dad just don’t care at all they don’t ask questions they don’t ask my mom how she’s doing and sometimes it just feels like I’m carrying this weight around and trying to hold things together but it’s just the typical Asian family things I guess not sharing how you’re feeling mentally or emotionally or whatever but it is what it is it is what it is I don’t know if I have much more to say it definitely was a big eye opener and a reminder that damn life is actually so unpredictable and short I hear so many stories left and right from Friends multiple people that I’m close to on my cookie team and even my own mother of sickness and death it’s it’s everywhere and it’s always chasing us so while you can be grateful that you’re still alive that you are well be grateful that you can see that you can hear me talk that you can read even feel and just be grateful that you wake up every day uh yeah I don’t know maybe I’m just too existential and overthink too much but uh that is my advice go live life don’t stress too much even though I’m a huge victim of that by working too hard on YouTube and just enjoy while you can thank you guys I love you guys and I’ll post another update when we get one see you

update video on my moms cancer

sorry for no normal video today guys… it’s been a hard, stressful few weeks for my family and i. a lot of you have been wondering how my mom has been doing so i thought i would make this update video and explain the entire situation. thank you for giving me a platform to share my life and thank you all so very much for the kind comments and wishes. we really appreciate it. i love you guys. 🙂
(this was a very weird video to upload on my birthday)

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